After 1 week being snowed in, I got pretty sick of that white shit. For 2 days it is nice, but that`s it. It toke me every day 3-4 hours of cleaning snow and digging water ways to anticipate on the melt water that bugged my mind. What started last night as a small storm ended in a water fall of rain and melting snow. I toke a coffee and admired that Dutch instinct in me, water management. We Dutchies are leading the world regarding this issue. I would make a fool out of myself when my neighbors see me fight with water.

All the animals we`re outside today and I toke the time to browse GFY and post an issue that keeps me busy for some time. How would you like it when you know that the sponsor you send traffic too is smoking weed? In this question in relation to the fact that many sponsors failed while they claimed they did everything, but they did actually nothing. Is that not a side effect of weed? Saying your doing it all, but in the mean time you are watching TV and moving on to a new reality.

Many posters think I am stupid and I dont understand that Weed is part of this business. Perhaps they dont understand that it might be a reason for program owners to keep failing year after year. But no, they fail cause they are hurt by bad affiliates who did nasty things or by disasters you see only on television.

Many posters also dont run intensive affiliate networks. Mines is reaching out to more then 220 sponsors, worked out on more then 5000 urls so it is my business to care for details. Also I have the time for it cause work automated last years on every possible field. The blogs and start pages are remote controlled from this very same laptop. My CCbill Network is not so old, and still making a lot of failures. Hosted galleries that fail or content that is just not to sell. Not many ccbill sponsors are worht it..

Oohh see im babeling on again, its 12:23 here, time to close the farm and make sure every animal stays inside, I hate sleep walking animals, when you wake them up, they get freaky!! ( little joke )

Have a good night and tomorrow I will find for sure another subject thats worth my time.

And finally I feel free.

Finally I can do what ever i want without minding those I thrust. I have come to many conclusions that put humanity in a bad daylight, but this does not mean I am free of sine and allowed to throw the first stone. But I am Free, after I came to that conclusion, I opened my SMS manager, and group SMS`ed all my friends and people i know, I have given up on all of them, I told them I wanted to be free and I give up the trust I have in them. Around 70 Phone numbers have my ticket to free dome in their archive and I hope they feel sorry when reading it, cause this is exact how they made me feel the last years, sorry to know them, sorry to see them fucking up many times, sorry for ignoring my good advice.

See, all those people wanted to see in me what they wanted to see. And they have mirrored their own actions towards me, and turned the finger on me, while 4 fingers we`re pointing to themselves.

Let me use an example so I can learn you guys something.

I have a sister in law, lets call her Julia in this version. Julia promised before I married her sister that she would stop doing webcam model work on sex sites.  This was one year ago, and while my wife and me heard her promises to us, we we`re very joyful. But we also knew we never asked her to do this, she has her own life. But we understood Julia needed a moral point in her life to work towards too. She decided this promises was her moral point.

After a certain point this year It was time for her to cash in on the promisse she made. So she told me some bull shit stories about her boss and how she had to pay money for something she thought was bullshit. All in all, she told me pretty consurning stuff about her boss, aka, one of my best friends. I waited for weeks with verifiying this information with him, the situation was never there. But when I had a moment with him while drinking coffee somewhere, I asked him if this was correct. He told me it was not, I never doubted him 1 second, and we went after a sillence of 2 seconds to a new subject. For me and him it was a closed matter on the moment we discussed it. BUt yeah, she is my family, so I am obligated to ask, I am sure my sister in law knew this also. She knows how i am.

A few weeks later I have to find out threw complicated personal situations that Julia went to her parents all crying, and telling her dad, my father in law, a political men, how I had tried to get her fired from her job. Her dad, my father in law, does not know she is doing webcam work. So, she made this for herself only more complicated then ever, cause I have no fear telling my father in law I paid for the farm and all investments cash with SEX MONEY.

Good, to close this situation down with a moral and a lesson. Julia just started a shithol of bad negative energy herself. If she would not have lied to her father just to make my name look bad, I would not have to feel motivate to show him where i exactly make my money and how and where. I am a legit company.  Her father is then free to ask me who my partners and friends are. I will then explain to her father, my father in law, that Julia her boss is one of my live webcam sex master affiliates. No need to hide things…. We make money in the porn, and we have no shame for it.

The best thing to do when we do this, is to drop thrust and faith in humanity. Cause our product is rotten by evil and rejected by those who follow higher lights and entities. Everyone who is with me trusted and friend, is one of the evil persons. I give up trust and faith in everyone I know So i can feel free and be rotten alone in a corner while counting my money.

I Give you all your life back… Stop doing what I do, there is no fucking end in this game of lust, trust, money, loosing your balls,  stop to trust me cause I don’t trust You…

Let me give you another example….

I care for people, like I care for myself. but I do moderate it, I am not one of those fools who cant get their guests out of their own hotel. I am a fucking terminator when I need to protect that what is mines and I need to keep it mines, otherwise I would never be able to be nice to you anyway without needing to be a friend of yours.

As soon I talk to those I car for, they start telling me things to keep me carrying for them. I have a Buddie, who is pretty smart, but he is lazy. I speak with him for 18 months now for sure, and he gained nothing interesting in my experience. He is not even worth my time, but I care for him as a friend. By doing this, he allows me to keep himself down, and to stay lazy. I give this guy, my friend, his life back, I dropped faith in him, I cant stand it to see himself go down without any resistance. I hope he will understand, and perhaps, very perhaps he will not use his next friend to keep himself down, but to get motivated.

Don`t trust my advices when I give them to you, they only make you work more and earn more. And when people earn more, they tend to become assholes and fuck it up. I don’t want friends like this. Please don’t follow me!!

EAT THIS

I don’t trust people who have certified themselves with papers that are there to convince me they are also qualified to represent that what the paper claims them to be.
How more complicated you want it? There is nothing to trust in this at all. And i feel I broke for 3 seconds your guard. You actually toke it serious and waived it away!!!

Trusting people is a gift. cause you trust them so those people open up to you. You let them trust you, so they tell everything about themselves, they feel accepted and leveled with you. So, when you give trust to people, you give your life away, portion by portion. When people trust you, they need you more and more, they get depended on you. They speak more to you, cause they trust your feed back. And before you know it, you spend hours every day maintaining  your network of trust. FUCK THAT!! I can make thousands of dollars with saving me this social mumble bumble.

My Wife is another thing here…. She is part of me. If i want it or not, when between my wife and me there is no trust, it is like living with a little devil on your shoulders. This goes for my wife also. Knowing that this devil is part of the anti social communication you can pollute your marriage with, it is better to acknowledge it and get ride of it. Many specialists from the corners where I came from will CONCURE!!! So between my wife and Me there is not really an issue of Trusting or Not. It is more an issue of allowing me to let it happen or not.

But she needs to trust, she is a women. Her nature is to Not Throw the Sandwich on the street like we guys do when we are full of it. Women preserve and balance. They do not cheat when they did not planned it themselves. Women is not to trust, you will never get to a point where you put your dick in the fire for a women. Accept this. Women is just a bio polar defragmentation of what should have been nice, of what should have been correct.

What do you expect, Adam gave God 1 Rib in exchange for a partner, you expect quality?

Men Versus Men… Trust can be so simple
Men Versus Women… Dont even try

For those who had no SMS. Sorry I think I never considered you as a real friend, or family anyway.

Peace….

TJ

Everywhere you look, someone is trying to tell you something different about sex. Some religions ask that you wait until marriage. On television, sex is used to sell everything from cars to colas. And since when have you seen a celebrity wait until marriage to have sex? Sex is a vital instrument for humanity, it is a social drugs that makes contact between humans vital and going. Sex is sold everywhere under different names. Some sell it as a toy, some sell it as an advice, and some sell it as therapy…..

Why did sex toke such a big place in our lives. How did this happen?

Remember that there was a time you we`re with your friends talking about TV-series, Knight Rider, the A-Team or the results of a sport game… That was live, sharing experiences. Do you remember that girls we`re still stupid and irritating?  That was a great time, innocent and liberal, free and no shames…. You we`re probably not aware of certain emotions that would take over your brain and control very soon.

It all starts with your first Girl Friend Experience. Your GFE, the term GFE is also a marketing term used by a certain group of webmasters working in the LIVE CAM areas.

Your First Girlfriend was that person who confirmed that you were a men for her she could trust. Suddenly your 12-13 or so and holding hands with a girl. Super nervous you are in the begin, but you like it, and you change… You want to impress your girl with everything you have. And all your friends are jealous cause you show that you are a men who can have a women on his hand.

Suddenly life becomes also more complicated. You start to discover emotions, and the downside of emotions. You start to learn from certain situations and mistakes, hoping you learn fast so you dont have to have 20 relations before you end up being finally happy.Suddenly you grow up so fast and your 20 and still you feel like you we`re 12-13 years old when you think back…..

Sex is a drug… ones you tasted it, you cant go without. If you loose your drug, you`ll be more then willing to do everything to get your drugs back. If that is not possible, you will have to go COLD TURKEY and kick off from LOVE.
Love is being together, not lonely, people hate loneliness, we are social interactive animals with urges and needs.

From my own experience, sex was never that important for me. I was raised with standard values from The Institute I staid a large part of my life. those we`re like the ten commandments. you don’t do things to hurt other people was my main life line…. Sex had no place on our institute, it was forbidden to have sex with people from your group. That relations we`re happening and sex was every day to smell, it was still a secret.

Sex was not a reason for me to start a relation with a women. Sex was more a present you give each other when you reach a complete feeling of each others awareness and feelings. I did see how ever during my life time growing up till now, various ways of selling it, and bringing it on the market. Sex is a complete industry that floods on emotions and the control people just do not have in this. How can you control this urge that is so vital for our wellbeing?

Sex is worlds most important drug, it is a thing we need to do to survive and keep living.

The time is now…. We go to war ….
Do you remind who said this? Probably not, cause so many people said it, it lost his moral meaning. People made real wars of it, and decided to rule over life and death. Soldier die for their Fatherland, a land that betrays his own people. The soldier died for nothing but his own faith in his own believes. Moral made him go to war, and war killed him.

Being fired up, it a moment of euphoria, people who have those feelings, develop when they do it good to capacity of convincing . Convince anyone of your battle, find warriors for your own mission… and you will never be stopped. People believe in you and are ready to die for you. Suddenly the table is turned, and your faith about wars are being replaced with believes in true power. Have we not seen in the histories many people who toke this power and went their own way. A way of lonely nightmares and ideas leading to more death and a everlasting hunger for power keeps on feeding this deaths. A dead soldier is worth nothing. A dead civilian is worth nothing. And STILL people find something worthy to fight for. A eureka moment made long ago by a leader is still having her destructive effects. Look at World War 2, the motivations for this war we`re based on a Idea, a insane man and his idea. He used all of the above to get into power and take over Germany and become a total leader and authority. Leaders are created every day, team leaders, leaders of industry, leaders of politics…. we follow, some more, some less, we pick the one we find more matching our ideas, and we give this person the only political power we have, our fucking vote.

You could almost conclude the political system is based on self destruction, but answers to those who have voted for the winning party. So there are always people who live under a political system they do not like. Here is where those Fired Up People with Eureka moments take the gray sheep’s and turns them into real believers.

By not being happy, and being self destructed, you created people around you using that and taking a profit from it. Are you a racist? then we have a political party for you taking you serious. Are you a Islam? Then we have something for you to… And on that way there is also a automated creation of something people DO NOT LIKE. With accepting Christians in a community, you might offend the Islams… and the other way around.

We have no lust to make it perfect, cause self destruction has a shape, a name, it`s everywhere.
It goes by the name of MONEY. And we all need it in this very lifetime. let the next generation take care for the problems we are having out of this now.

I have seen many shapes of war, in words and with hands. That the pen is mightier then the sword is a fact, but human kind is programed to self destruct. We are the only species able to destroy our living space. We use the saying ” don’t piss in the pool you swim ” so many times that we have forgotten where it comes from. Self Destruction.

Some people give in to those feelings of self destruction and lead a life of freedoms and explorations. They discover the dark sides in themselves, experiment with certain drugs to travel into deeper worlds, and coming to conclusions you can understand only when you have been there also.

Some people do not let themselves become a victim, they point their frustrations on the ones who they love the most. People can not always deal with love and being loved. They are programed to self destruct.They destroy first the ones who love them, so when they destroy themselves they will not be stopped.

I love Self Destruction, it means total chaos, not being in control. We all hunger for those moments sometime. but we despite those who drink to much of this… We have no respect for those going overboard and trying to take you down with them in their fall. Self Destruction stops on a certain moment. When you drink to much, you destruct yourself, and the next morning you promise yourself to never do it again.

Self Destruction is the WALL we want to run into sometimes. It is the wall of reason and error. Fail and Success. Bad and Good Luck. You might think this is strange, but SELF DESTRUCTION is part of our system. Adam accepted it from Eve, we endure this fail for the rest of our existence, learn to life with it!!

We humans need to show SELF DESTRUCTION, we build heavy rockets, and dangerous weapons to show other people we are serious. But who are we think that other people do not act on this and to that very same thing? A stand of is made, a self destruction warning is given. It is only a matter who pushes the button, and when this will happen. Lets hope to get this question answered far after we are dead

To all of those who are in the mood of self destruct, please walk to the nearest exit, and leave the building. Find a nice place in nature, dig a hole, and do it there. Never let someone suffer under your selfish moods. But if you decide to NOT do it, and halfway the ride to that peaceful place you hit into a wall, let this be a lesson then OK, and never do so stupid again.

Go to war with yourself, spread some good energy and stop claiming each others attention with your self destructing attitude

Peace…..

TJ

To all those cars trying to drive me off the road cause they have something against my 2-wheeler.

Hey Asshole, I am Human To… Drive me with 150 to a con creek wall, and you will have the honer of telling my wife you were just dialing your mistress while hitting gear Number 5 and forgetting to see me.

I drive safe, I like to think this of myself. So when I go to the left, I go to the left, and the car behind me should not think I forgot to turn off my signal light and wants to overturn me. When I give gas, I will go forward, I dont go backward like some cars do when I pull up behind them. If I give priority to the car coming from the right, and stop and wait till he passes, do not try to HUNK me with your car halfway the other passes, cause I am not going to risk 2 Meters of profit with opening gas before he passed me. My Life is worth some money, and I want to cash in on this. I am human to.

I arrived after a stressful drive on the farm, and there was all panic.  It did cost  me some time to figure out what the panic was about, but reading the faces, I was thinking my Pig died and was cut up in the freezer. They all know I love that Pig, and when Christmas comes, I will sneak her out to a new house and make sure she survives the winter.

But no, when I was seeing the pig, it was greeting me with a dirty nose and a lot of food on it. Happy Pig, Harry Happy. what the fuck is this panic about he? I get lightly irritated, and ask Nika with my hands what the fuzzz is about. She starts talking in her own language, and explains me everything, at least she thinks. I didnt got 1 word of it. I do try to read her hands and the signals, but they made strange moves left and right and shocking up and down…..

She runs away, I say ” wtf where you go “  she goes even faster and comes back after 3 minutes with a paper. I take the paper while looking in her eyes trying to find a reason why she is panicking, and open it. I see for most people a reason to get panic, the electricity bill. And it was around $40 …. I still didn’t got the panic, and toke the paper inside to put her in my admin. Ones inside my office after unlocking it, a smell came to my nose. Paper falls on the ground …..

Ahhh I see and smell what the panic was about. I see now why they gave me a bill. They would know I would go inside to take the money and pay it. I see now why people we`re looking in my windows, and started talking like God was present in my house. Now i know why the little women was scared and panics….

My eye went from the window slow to the ground. I did it slow, cause I was sure I was going to see something I would not like to see….. Carefully I lower my vision, and the horror becomes clear. My whole house was filled with dead mouses. A mayhem of death, a smell of recycling, and a sight, it was like Hellraiser Pinhead was in my house while everyone was away and the darkness was his best witness.
My wife plaid a little with the poison, and left open a few doors by accident. It must have been a strange sight to see mouses walking in your house smelling the poison. I think The mouses of the whole street was breathing out their last cheesy breath in my own house. How the hell I have to forget this and not see ghosts mouses walking everywhere any night possible.

I toke a few minutes to absorb the sight and see the horror and pain. The suffering, the sweet needless endless suffering they endured while eating a fest of a meal and being tricked by human. What would the mouse have told me when i was there?  Hey Asshole I am Human to!!!

I felt guilty, instantly… I picked a few running in circle mouses out, and threw them in the garden hoping there is some life for them, i was not guilty enough to call animal care, they would not even come. I did the best possible.
On my way home, I toke some time to think about this, how is it possible that this could happen?

1 hour later and 100 cars later trying to kill me on my way back home, i ask my wife how this could happen. She gives a ” ehhh “  and that was enough. how much poison did you used my dear? Oohh you used all 4 bottles. You realize those 4 bottles were for the rest of our life time? Ahhh right you hate mouses, so you thought, lets do it good, why not.

I could not even be mad about this. I mean, she is scared and used all possible to fight her fears, so using a little bit more just made her feel comfortable. Cause I understand my wife most of the time pretty fast, and sometimes faster cause I really want to understand…  That I explained  her I cleaned up a small 200 mouses, was more to entertain her with the fact I was not scared. I told her also all mouses got a decent funeral..Her face went from confident to sad.. Then I explained her how I will try to find the lost children left behind while their mother was feasting on my wife her party meal…. I think my wife now almost cries……. I also explained her that mouses can not run to a doctor like people run to my wife sometimes….She knew nothing else to say then ” Hey Asshole, I am human to ….”

I know you care sweety, we all do on some point….

Peace…..

TJ

Reason for this post : Just a few situations in the past with people

You are born naked and you had a clean soul. You we`re young and had no knowledge of good and bad. Those first 3 years you had are somewhere stored in your brain, and you will never be able to remind you this, if you would remind it, you would only remind fragments of brain moments. Your brain as actually still growing to his normal shape. On the moment you we`re reaching 4, your brain started to build up memories. Thanks to more active parts in your brain your able to feedback, show emotions, show needs, learn to communicate, and speak your first words. Those first years of that development you are open for everything and your daily motivated to learn. You are a kid that is about to grow up to a little bugger who will be perhaps like his parents or not. The truth is, on the moment you are communicating and able to speak, you will meet Mister Right and Wrong….

Ask yourself this.

How did you learn to lie and bend the truth on such a way your world would not be rumbling?
Did you stole a candy from your mother and when she asked you if you did, did you say YES or NO?
Is the truth hurting sometimes and you will lie to avoid pain?

Yes, we all lied as kid. We are learned to. Why would you not be afraid for punishment when your mother asks you on a angry tone if you toke that candy? FEAR is a motivation for many people. Some use it in their benefits, some use it to confront themselves, and others hide from it. Blame your parents, did they lied to you, we`re they lied to. Is it a thing that goes on from generation to generation so you cant actually call it a lie, but more a way of living?

Ask yourself this

If God would appear in the middle of the night, would you run on the streets with flowers and throw those in the air and run towards him without fear? Or would you stay we`re you are and see how it ends for you?

God is used to fear kids, but also to teach morals. God is used to create passion for social events, but He is also used to fear those who have their own way of enjoying their lifestyle and social events. ( this is how different God`s we`re born ) Big thinkers describe the bible as a guide line. A everlasting document that is created by humanity and passed on to the new generation, re-written in their languages, in their understandings, in their definitions, so faith can always be understand and alive in what ever world possible, or time, place, dimension.  Fear is passed on from generation to generation.

Ask yourself this

Why lie and confront yourself with 10 problems as much, when the truth only brings you in trouble 1 time?
The honest approach is the best and most appreciated one.

If you need 10 rules made up by human with a main goal to prevent chaos and create law and order, Then these are those 10 problems. You don’t need those 10 rules if you live by the 1 and most important rule ever.

——————————- Rule 1 = DO NOT LIE

It prevents you from murdering, stealing, cheating, and whatever more…..

People who do not lie are covering all bases, and will never be in trouble. Those people also experience more happines then we do with our web of lies. Those people I admire, they might be a simpleton, under valued, but those people are the fundamental part of our lives. For those people I wish all the joy and luck, they deserved it. For those who lie, I wish a fast and quike problem, so you may stop with lies soon and see that the truth just SELLS better also

No need to believe in any God to be a perfect human?

Peace….

TJ

Yeah… I was trying to help out someone on Yahoo, and while I was doing that, I reminded me the many times on Yahoo that I spoke with people. WTF , why do we talk? Why do we even care?

We associate with one and other very fast when we compare and are matching and bringing you a feeling of acceptance. Dynamic webmastering is a higher level of team work without filling each others pockets directly. It is more a side way of sharing information for a price that is not by definition to express in money.

1 example is, a forum poster who posts about his positive experience with a hosting company. This dude understands that a good hosting is a bitch to find, and he suffered many mistakes ( experiences ) before he found the company he uses now. Now he tells you that you can prevent all the mistakes ( experiences ) he has encountered and gives you a link. While clicking this link, you generate on his Reseller affiliate area a HIT. You help him already. Now help yourself and you help him again. He will be compensated for the trust he has from you. His sponsor, your new hosting, will reward him with a one  time fee, or with a % on the money you see on your Invoice. So this means, when you pay 200 for your hosting every month, and he gets 20% reseller commission, he will make a clean 40 dollars every month with this same company.

For you no difference, you could have bought this same hosting without his help, and no one would have taken a 20%

So, there is a dynamic in a relation now. The dynamic is motivated by money. Money is the most basic need for an adult webmaster to maintain his business.You can now contact this forum poster, and explain him that you toke his offer and you are aware he is making money on you, and your also aware he does not take it from you, and it would not have made a difference for your invoice anyway, so why not make a relation with him.

All in all, we need each other, on what ways we are attached to each other is not important here. That your attached and have without you even knowing perhaps already a network of people around you.

Now here comes the kicker….

What this forum poster did in my given example is also for you possible to do. With being helpful and NOT act like a spam pimp, and never move money as a motivator forward, you would be able to make on a new way a living as an adult webmaster.

If you are able to make 20 people using your hosting reseller link, you make easy 800$ a month with just being a nice guy!!!

Peace….

TJ